Summer Vibes

[ swimsuit by WolvenThreads ]

[ yoga/swim suit by WolvenThreads ]

[ Bikis by DressLink ]

Ola hermosas!

Happy that Summer is here. Well I live in place where everyday every year is practically hot sizzling day, but the weather sure is nice around here these months too!

Ok, the greatest thing on being on blog sphere, is that you can find inspiration as well as good (and cheap) products recommendation, plus the real life experience of using the products. That inspiration to inspiring is the only reason I blog since the first place.

So on this post, I'd tell you few bikini set I love- that I wore on previous short beach getaway couples of weeks ago.

First one is from DressLink.com. They have quite a lot of bikini choices with super crazy affordable price! Head out to this link HERE to check out their swimwear collection. And don't worry, shipping to Indonesia start at only US$4 within only 2 weeks to be at your door!

Then the geodessic prints suits are actually my favo yoga set. They're lovechild of my indigenous girl slash designer, Kiran Jade, for her amazing brand WolvenThread. Great news, they offer only US$10 shipping fee to Indonesia!! I tell you it's all worth it! She designs all those amazing pieces by herself, and as fellow mother of hippie lovechild, you def should check their lovely web & collection (especially you boho souls out there!)

Speaking of which, I'll be releasing my new babies on my web tomorrow >> HEYLINF.COM << I've been handmaking the babies all holiday. Hope you'll love em.

Post more soon!

Until then, toodles-doodles!

Body Bully

[ H&M black wide brim hat - H&M x Coachella cropped top - H&M gypsy necklacke - FOREVER21 long gypsy necklace - CHEAP MONDAY black skinny denim (DIY-ed) - PULL&BEAR black shoe-sandals - Unbranded boho bag bought on Harajuku Japan ]

Hi lovely readers,

So I've been meaning to write a little about body bully since long time. Guess now is the time.

I'm a (soon) 27 yo girl born and live skinny my entire life. Never in my life I do food diet, and for that I feel luckier than any other girls around me. Although all I see in my eyes, all them girls are so lucky to have boobs, hip curve, and butt.

Since I was in junior high, there are two things I heard the most from people around me: "Oh God you're so skinny (making weird frown face between slightly jealous and pity, and measuring my narrow waist which just the span of their hand)", and  "Oh you're skinny! Like this! (rise up their little finger in front of my face)". Little that they know, it makes me more and more insecure of my body each time I hear that from them. I remember I always laugh when they say that kind of 'joke' statements. I refer it as joke coz at the same time they (I mean all of them) say it, they laugh.

In other hand, people are usually more sensitive to big size girls. I never hear them say to my big size friend, 'Oh God you're so fat'. Even if there're some blunt speaking people saying that to their friend, they usually make it less, well less blunt.

I know that lotsa girls would've want to have skinny body, less fat, but more on the female parts like boobs hips and butt. And we've been consumed by the perfect imagery of that 'dream body' in almost every-where. The blunt 'body labelling' in our society, makes us even more blunt to say our mind about our body and our neighbour's (friends or just random strangers) body. Makes body bullying less, obvious. Some friends comforted me that they who always mentioning how skinny I am, is the most jealous to my body. Well, I would never make peace with myself by justifying that reason.

All I'm saying is, telling people skinny is (sometimes) just as hurt as telling people fat. As long as I live, not so many people acknowledge that- their defend is that all people would like to be skinny. But tried to judge that with your honest heart, if someone say it out loud and making gesture about your bodyfigure. Try to feel both shoes. Even in Megan Trainor's famous All About That Base, she addresses one called 'skinny bitch'. Well, not every skinny girl is acting like a bitch. But that generalisation itself is actually a bully to skinny girls. That's what I thought.

Now after more than 26 years living my life, I'm fully accepting my body figure. Even though sometimes I admit that I do feel a bit insecure- like when I'm wearing bodycon dress/skirt. But most of the time, I don't care what people think, or say. As long as I feel good about my self.

But to my friends and to society, please be more sensitive about body bullying. You don't know how your short words can bring someone's down and effect their life. :)

Until next post, toodles-doodles!

Sometimes, You Just Lost

You...

Sometimes I just wanna be you.

Can I for a day?

[ TOPSHOP denim moto jacket & black boots - LOOK I'M NOT A FLUKE sun choker - FOREVER21 bell bottom pants - BOYFIE'S tshirt ]

Until next post, toodles-doodles!

War of Mind

So people say there are two life crisis everyone will face in their life. Guess I’m about to entering the first one. This year soon, I’m turning 27. Call me a drama queen or whatever you want, but honestly these time, few things that wasn’t really in my thought, are now actually (kinda) burning in my head. You know, things about love, life, money, works, all in all, about future (read: settling down life period).

I’ve been talking to several close friends about this, my constant thinking about overdue life goals and love journey- you know, marriage and stuff. Few of them are actually older than me, not yet settle down, and they’re facing the same mind-war, so I call it. 

I know, 27 is kinda early to have this war. I didn’t say I’m in one already, but I’m entering the phase I guess. Since I was in Junior high, I must say marriage to me is so very very very very very utterly a big thing. A bit scared of it actually. So I never think about marriage until I will reach, I don’t know, 29 or 30 maybe. Marriage, kids, having my own family, were never in my head all these time. Until now. Well, tell you the truth now I’m still scared of the idea of marriage itself and am not ready for the next 3 to 4 years. 

Seeing (almost) all my high school friends already with their 2 yo children, it kinda makes me a bit envy. Envying that grand idea of ‘settling down’. They seem so happy with their settled life by having and raising their own family, while me, still having fun doing things I wanna do, use all my money for whatever I want to. No boundaries. But wait, it seems quite perfect if I wrote it that way huh?

Job or work-wise, you don’t wanna know. Coz I could write the whole magazine if I put it here. This actually the biggest pie if I ever draw a chart to explain this mind-war concept of mine into a presentation. (sorry can’t really tell you all)

So this is my current war of mind. Tugging and pulling between continuing having the time of my life with all my ego, and the ‘its time to settle down’ deadline approaching.

Knowing that I’m not alone, that most of my girl friends are actually having this life phase, I was recommended to watch a movie titled Lola Versus. All I know, you, most of my readers are actually way younger than me, and my advice, do what I did when I was you age: always seize the day and don’t think for more than two seconds about your settling down period. Coz there will be time, as about I am right now, that you will think about that most of the time. Then welcome to the war.

Oh back again to the movie. So I watched it and you guys should really watch it too. It has no conclusion just like my writing right here. Why? Well because I’m still living my life. If I write the concluded ending now, then I must be so old or dead by now (a ghost blogger, gee scary!). 

All I know now, I won’t let my thoughts about future ruins my now, my presents. Yes, I will think about my future, but I will not sweat over it.

Until next post, toodles-doodles!

Hippier Than Ever- Fashion Profile Video by Gadutism

Hey again you...

I promised myself to publish this last night, but I had to broke it due to some company invitation event thing I had to attend at French embassy here on my city.

First off, I'm dyingly in love with my little project here in this post, where about a week ago on a nice bright Sunday morning I met this lovely fellas, Angga Gadut and his friend slash assistant, Adrian, who actually a super extra major BIG time talented video/cinematographer! You guys can check out his works here > GADUTISM.COM

Well, life as you (might) know as a blogger, first up you made friends online, then when you have the chance (and fate ;p), you meet up and do some fashion collab- or just simply a meet up.

That's what happened last week. We've been arranging time and place to make (my) personal-style video profile since last month, and thank God it was a lovely bright-sky day. We actually shoot this video at 8-ish in the morning. If you wonder, the place was actually an empty land on Serpong area. And the soil really ruin my Tardy boots, so we decided not to shoot the feet. And it was hot as hell to tell you the complete truth.

But all in all, we were so very excited that day.

Then until few days ago, Gadut finnaly published my video on YouTube. I'M FREAKIN FALLING IN LOVE, and seriously can't stop replaying! lol. Well, all credit to him and his friend of course.

Well to close up this post, you can play the video below. And lemme know what you guys think down on that little comment box!


Until next post, toodles-doodles!

Minority Minded

[ LOOK I'M NOT A FLUKE thin choker - O'MIGHTY crop top - MUIZZU SHOP pants - POLETTE sunnies - BERRYBENKA shoes - street market bag & watch ]

Now now,

I’ve been writing my thoughts on this blog since 2010. Unlike other so-called fashion bloggers- though as you guys who’ve been reading past posts knew that I don’t see myself as fashion blogger and prefer personal-style blogger, or just blogger instead, coz since the very beginning I treat this blog sort of like a diary. The reason? Well let’s just say I have so many things going on this big head of mine. And for the last 26 years, I found out that not so much people would listen to one thing called explanation. Or let’s just say I barely meet someone who like to listen as much as they like to tell/speak. Me, on the other hand, like to explicate things on my head. And I always expect an argument- that is in a good way of course.

Until I met, my blog. ;p Well I sort of like believe that someone somehow somewhere, reading every word, thought, and story I shared on this blog, while i just keep the argument on my head. Or if they don’t exist, well anyway at least i’ve let and say it out.

See? Just for an intro took me so many words already!

Anyway, I wonder if music plays a big part of your life as it does to me. I really can’t go a day without any song/music on my ears. True life story. Guess it started out with my dad and granddad who has huge love for Jazz and Keroncong musics, and also audio stuffs. None of them play any instruments, but ever since I was very little I remember dad played so many songs on his tape, and every time I was home from school, I directly put dad’s laser disk and played Morris Albert’s Feelings. I was just 4 years old. Ma' said I really love to sing Inka Christie ft Amy Search song, Cinta Kita, every-damn-day when I was 3 yo... Lol. Some of you might think it’s lame, the song, but I still love it till now.

Hey that pointed out why I always have a thing for sad and tragic love songs! Been this way since little me. :D

On my junior and high school days, well, you know, everybody loved pop musics. Been switching crushes between each member of Westlife and Nsync. Tho I still listen to Jazz and Blues, coz of my Dad. To name a few, I played these music on my Walkman: Eagles, Earth Wind and Fire, BeeGees, MLTR, Simply Red, Siti Nurhaliza, Sheila on 7, Shaden, Dewa19, Padi,  Backstreet Boys, 98Degrees, and the list goes on you don’t wanna know.

Yes, my genre is quite random. Since my brother learned bass and electric guitar, I heard a lot of metal blues, and rock music. Till I randomly went with Dad and my brother to see John Myung solo concert here. That very night, I fell in love with Metal music. I was starting to listen to Slipknot, Avenged Seven Fold (by the way I went to their concert here, it was A-owesome!), Dream Theatre of course, Bullet For My Valentine, but my fave is A7X and Slipknot.

Ok to make it even weirder, my musical soul, I learned Classical piano for 4 years. Didn’t turned out well, I can only read, but can’t really play outside the book. During that learning time I listened to lot of Classical music, even till now sometimes I played Tchaikovsky on YouTube. This early year I bought an Uke, but also never can really swing it. :( 

Relapsing the time scene to present, and to cut to the chase, guess I’ve found my true soul in music, my love for Folks music. I don’t know where the hell I get to it if you read my A to Z list of fave music since i was little, but… yeah...

Putting a rank is unnecessary, so here are the list, in random, of my fave person, band, group, duo, gang, or just musics that I really really love which you HAVE TO, once more, HAAAAAAVE TO! search on YouTube/Soundscloud/anywhere you like:

• Devendra Banhart (first timer I suggest you go for Baby, LISTEN HERE )

• Vance Joy (first timer: Riptide, LISTEN HERE )

• George Ezra (well most of you might know him, try Cassy O, HERE )

• Miniature Tigers (try Like or Like Like, but I insist you to listen to this PLAYLIST HERE )

• Broadcast2000 (try go for my happy working song Gonna Build a Mountain, here’s the PLAYLIST )

• Young The Giant (I fell in love the first time through this song Crystallised, PLAY HERE )

• Alice Pheobe Lou (just found out about here last week, and I’m dying-ly in love with her music. Her hauntingly beautiful voice and her free spirit just inspire me so much. Try Berlin Blues HERE )

• Elephant Kind (just stumbled on YouTube and fall in love hard, try my fave Oh Well HERE  Alert: if it’s a love at first song after you play, they gon launching their EP next week, info on their YouTube channel as well ;)

• Walk Off The Earth (my most fave YouTube artist, try playing their Red Hands HERE )

• Stars and Rabbit (found them out on Reverberation and an instant fan since last year then finally watched their gigs twice last month, still crave for more! try my fave Man Upon The Hill or Rabbit Run HERE )

• Dekat (ok I’m not under influence here trust me. It’s mr boyfie’s group and he’s the rapper. They just released an EP last month, info on their channel. Go listen to my fave Kembali Bekerja HERE )

• Kodaline (try One Day HERE )

• Hozier (try Take Me To Church, Someone New, and Cherry Wine HERE )

Ok. that's about it for now. Hope you don’t mind for the long reading. Coz I hate to simplify my explication. ;p

Until next post, tootles-doodles!